Happy New Year...

So my bestfriend (the annoying mosquito) and I had a deep conversation one knight a few weeks ago (as we do very often) and it was decided that I needed a blog. For the next few days I pondered "what the hell can I put in the blog?" I had so much to say, so much on my mind, and so much in my heart that needed an escape. Every thought seemed to be the perfect way to start my blog but I never really could find the right sequence or the time to start it. Then I thought, "a new year typically brings a new beginning, why not start the blog then?" So here I am publishing my first post on my new blog created by my bestfriend.

That my dear readers is my best friend Jen with her beau JJ (who also happens to be my fraternity brother). Jen and I met one random night back in Feb of 2011 when I offered to give her a ride back to her dorm so she would not walk alone. Contrary to popular belief nothing other than a "thank you" was exchanged. I honestly thought that would be the last time that I either saw or spoke to her but sure enough a few days later I had a new friend request (guess who?). As fate, destiny, chance, serendipity, or what ever else you may believe in, has it, Jen and I struck a friendship like no other. We shared our fears, dreams, wishes, hopes but most importantly we shared our care for each other. I owe plenty to Jen as she has helped me through some of my most difficult times over that last year or so and helped me keep my head on straight. One such story is the one below.

Brace yourself folks, the ride it about to get interesting...

In September of 2010 I met the most interesting girl in the world who became known as "the munchkin." (the only good thing about that picture) The munchkin and I attended training for work over the next three months and grew really close. Unfortunately, she was taken and so was I and our relationship could be nothing more than "just friends." Ironically enough, the munchkin and I both became single around the same time in February of 2011. We had always remained good friends and would talk frequently either at work or even "after hours." After February, the next few months were rather confusing and rocky. We casually dated, stopped dating, dated again, stopped talking, talked some more then completely cut each other off. Then one fateful night in August it all came together. I started talking to the munchkin again and it was as if we never skipped a beat. Next thing I know 8/19/11 rolls around and she becomes my girl and I am the happiest person in the world. At that point I felt invinceable (or however the hell you spell it). But, Manny is still Manny and I did certain things (that shall remain nameless) that jeopardized our relationship greatly. However, the love the munchkin had for me was far greater than any stupidities that I could ever do and our relationship endured. It endured until once again I did something that I WILL FOREVER REGRET. December of 2011 I called it quits. The days following the split were unbearrable for both of us. I cannot say exactly what she was feeling as I truly do not know but I can only imagine the pain that I have caused her. To this day I WANT THE MUNCHKIN BACK and love her "to the moon and back" but I feel like I cannot be with her because of everything that has happened. I will be completely honest when I say writing this I feel my heart breaking ever so slowly and I cannot contain the tears I cry from the pains of my decision. I miss her ever so much and want nothing but the best for her even if (as I suspect) it is the love from another. So this my friends is how I will begin my 2012, tear filled eyes, a heavy heart, and nothing but regret for letting go of possibly the best love I will ever know. MUNCHKIN IF FOR SOME REASON YOU EVER READ THIS KNOW THAT I AM TRULY SORRY!!!